Sunday, June 19, 2011

short story



The Killer?
                Opening the door I see a pool of blood and things scattered and disheveled all about the front room. The blood, sticky and seeped into the floor. It’s as if you can feel to horror in the air. Slowly creeping my way down the hallway the horrid smell of rotten, decaying fells fills my nose. The door that was shut at the end of the always seems miles away. As I approach it, it lets out an old creaky screech as its slowly pushed open. Dread filling my body takes over all my emotions as the open door nudges further and further open. Eyes slowly moving to the right…she’s there. Sam is lying on the floor by the computer desk that is splattered with red, lying in a swamp of blood, face covered in fresh bruises. Her all is almost shredded off her body, as if someone was hacking at it and decided to stop…hanging on by what looks like shredded meat. Stab marks all over her abdomen and chest look like little slots with dried blood around the knife entry way. I can’t cry of scream. I fumble for my phone. Panicing, sweaty, and nauseous I dial 911 with shaky fingers.
                Driving home from the police station I wondered who could have killed Sam. When all of a sudden I see someone running from a darkened street and run into a car that looked like Shayna’s.
                Later the next day when I was with Shayna to discuss what happened to Sam I jokingly told her about the person I thought looked like her running from the street and she oddly got tense and sort of defensive. When I got home later in the day I put on the news to see if there was anything about Sam’s murder on the news. Instead of seeing a picture of Sam I see a teenage boy, his name is Devin. The news woman is talking about how this boy was brutally murdered late last night; it turned to a picture of his street. It was the same darkened street I saw last night! What if that was Shayna who I saw? But no, why would Shayna being going around and killing people, one being her friend? She didn’t kill me when we were together…
                Within a couple of days there had already been three more murders. All teenagers. Ben, Laura, and Jake, all unmercifully murdered. Also at one of the scenes someone had reported seeing a car that was identical to Shayna’s car at the crime scene. Again, why would Shayna be killing people?    
                Its been almost a week without any new murders. Until last night. When another one of my friends was murdered. Jess had been brutally beaten and viciously stabbed forty-three times cause of death being blunt force trauma. Her younger brother Jordan found her like that in her bedroom. Jess didn’t have any enemies. No one understands what’s happening. Life is like one big scary movie now, no one wanting to leave their houses, food stores being wiped about because people freak out and panic too much. 
                It has been about a month and no new murders. Forensics has found evidence though. Female DNA has been found on clothing and half a finger print on a table in Jess’ house, it’s not a big enough print to place it to a person unfortunately but there is still. When I was telling Shayna this she nervously blocked it out. Then she said “I want believe it was Jess’ head hitting the dresser that killed her and not the stab wombs” after she said this I remembered how no one had proven it was the dresser that Jess’ head got smashed off of. How would Shayna know that? After this Shayna started acting sketchy and weird about everything. She was always jumpy and jittery but not in the good fun energy way. Then she told me how the police had been questioning her and they are led to believe she’s the killer.    
                BANG! Is all you hear from the interrogation room in the police station. The detective slamming his fist down onto the cold hard table demanding answers from Shayna. After he yells at her for a couple more minutes Shayna burst into hysterics tears falling from her face like a foset, sobbing on the table she confesses to the murders and explains why she did the gruesome acts. She’s sentences to life in prison with no chance of parole.

Friday, May 13, 2011

5/13/11

"The Last Night"
You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie.

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you'll spend alone,
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,
I'm everything you need me to be.

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie.

[Chorus]

The last night away from me

[Bridge:]
The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand I will help you hold on
Tonight,
Tonight.

[Chorus]

I won't let you say goodbye,
I'll be your reason why.

The last night away from me,
Away from me.

Destruction, hence, like creation, is one of Nature's mandates



biting keeps your words at bay
tending to the sores that stay
happiness is just a gash away
when i open a familiar scar
pain goes shooting like a star
comfort hasn't failed to follow so far...

and you might say it's self-indulgent, you might say its self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive, than if i were to be healthy

& pens and penknives take the blame
crane my neck & scratch my name
but the ugly marks
are worth the momentary gain...
when i jab a sharpened object in
choirs of angels seem to sing
hymns of hate in memorandum

and you might say it's self-indulgent, and you might say it's self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive, than if i were to be happy

and sappy songs about sex and cheating
bland accounts of two lovers meeting
make me want to give mankind a beating

and you might say it's self-destructive, but, you see, i'd kick the bucket
sixty times before i'd kick the habit

and as the skin rips off i cherish the revolting thought
that even if i quit
there's not a chance in hell i'd stop
and anyone can see the signs
mittens in the summertime
thank you for your pity, you are too kind

and you might say its self-inflicted, but you see that's contradictive
why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?

and pain opinions are sitcom feeding
they dont know that their minds are teething
makes me want to give mankind a beating

i'm tried bandages and sinking
i've tried gloves and even thinking
i've tried vaseline
i've tried everything
and no-one cares if your back is bleeding
they're concerned with their hair receding
looking back it was all maltreating
every thought that occurred misleading

makes me want to give myself a beating....

Self destroyer, wreck your health, destroy friends, destroy yourself. The time device of self destruction, lies, confusion, start eruption.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

destruction

The skin breaks,
The blood begins to stream,
I'm wishing, hoping, praying,
This time will wash you out of my mind.
But it doesn'tmy eyes full of tears. full of defeat.
Why do you have to be this way?
Taking every moment of my pathetic life in your hands.
The razor drops to the floor, covered with blood. My blood.
I can now feel the burn from the cut on my wrist, but
A much more potent burning within my very soul because of you.
You say everything will be fine, but it's not.
You say everything will be like it was, but it can't be.
Why can't you see the pain and torment in my eyes every time you look in them?
Now I sit alone in my room,
Crying, depressed,
Wondering, maybe, if the cut was deeper I could get you out of my mind forever.
I hate you. I hate what you have done to me.
You have changed me for the rest of my life.
How can I tell you? How can I make you understand?
My soul is now just a deep cavern where I hide my sorrow from the world.
I look down and see the razor, mocking me
Should I cut again? Will it help my pain?
What will I gain? What can I lose?
I now hold the blood-covered razor to my pure ivory skin,
With one last deep breathe...


Human Destruction

Where distant screams haunt the nights,
And streets are filled with empty homes.
Where starving dogs are left to fight
Over lost men's meat and children's bones.

Where a woman's plea comes to an end,
As a sharp gunshot cuts through the air.
It becomes a normal act just to pretend-
To convince oneself there's nothing to hear.

When the world grows silent
And the candle melts the last wax folds.
And we're I'm left in cold confinement
Left only to tear at my bloodstained clothes.

When the hope burns out
And the last cinder dies.
The world's left with only doubts
Where all you hear are endless lies.

When the air is filled with the stench of death
And the dark blood stains the roads.
And the only choice that now is left:
Is a choice of which no one knows.

When the smoke of burning men fills the air:
A smoke that no wind can fend.
When you take a breath and you declare:
This is when it really ends.

Stefanie Zammit